I am completely done.
I sent Nick an extremely long text. I indirectly acknowledged the Fred text. Told him I regretted everything. And told him I was shocked at how immature he has been.
I do actually regret everything.
I am going to embrace the blinders. Boy what? Cute what? Wink what? I'm too focused on my future to notice the pig in his charming disguise.
Heartache sucks, and I don't want to feel anything anymore.